I haven't been blogging much because things have been really up-and-down for me lately. For instance, I'm 99% sure I have full-blown fibromyalgia. It would make sense; I have all the symptoms. I'm also 99% sure that I have overt schizoid personality disorder. It would make sense; I have all the symptoms. (Note: It has nothing to do with schizophrenia; the similar names stem from similar symptoms, not similar causes. So I've got that going for me.)
I prefer to think of the mental and emotional issues in non-clinical terms; 100 years ago, I would have been labeled eccentric and a recluse, and I'm okay with that. Just putting a finger on something that's been niggling at me for most of my life is enough to help me get a handle on it. Anyway, between dealing with that and the other thing (chronic pain and stiffness is just so much damn fun), not to mention all the fun a few weeks ago, blogging has been light. I would normally apologize, except I'm not sure anymore why I do this so I won't.
Also I'm working with someone whose company I realized I really don't enjoy, but that's not really grounds to quit what I'm doing, so I'll just put up with it. Doesn't mean I'm happy about it.
I did change my hours at work (same eight hours, just arranged differently) so that'll be a nice change. Turns out I have to do that at least once a year or I get too far into a rut. It's a living.
3 comments:
Whatever. You're a fine person. We all hope your health is good and gets better. Fibro is no fun but I know people who are at least managing it, and living normally. As for SPD, you're gregarious enough here and at blogmeets. Maybe you just dislike idiots.
yr in my prayers anyway, for what it's worth.
Hey, I'm okay with it. Finding answers alleviates that nagging "I'm a freak" feeling. As for living normally, it's just a matter of facing reality and adjusting my normal to fit that.
I LIVE for that nagging "I'm a freak" feeling.
There is nothing I can think of that I abhor more than being considered "normal"
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