Thursday, November 15, 2007

Hoo boy.

Tomorrow (Friday) is the last day of my internship. My only remaining requirements for graduation are a) one more day of work, b) a portfolio of my internship experience and c) an exit interview with my sequence coordinator. It only took me five and a half years to get here. You'd think I'd be more excited, but strangely, it's just a sense of peace.

I think it's a bit like watching the Colts last year. We got all excited and jumped on the furniture when they beat the Patriots for the AFC championship, but when they beat the Bears in the Super Bowl, we all just sat there and smiled a lot. This is a similar feeling. I jumped up and down and screamed when I got the internship; now that's it's almost done, I'm surprisingly calm. That may change in the coming weeks, of course - I graduate in exactly one month, booyah! - but for now I just feel that sense of calm, accomplishment and rest that comes with finishing a long project and knowing that soon I won't have to work on it any more.

Of course, I still have to find a full-time job somewhere in Indy and find a place to live, but I've learned I quite enjoy the work-a-day routine of standard adult life. I'm looking forward to it and, despite my medical bills, I think I'll be all right. I mean, I do have the Power that created the universe backing me up, so that's got to count for something.

Thursday, November 08, 2007

I'm back. I'm not dead. This was an actual concern this time.

Usually, when I've been away from this site for a while I come back with some lame excuse about how I've been stressed and I haven't been up to writing.

This time, it's because I had cancer.

Suffice it to say, I had surgery, the surgery got it all and I am one incredibly lucky person. If I hadn't found it when I did, God only knows how long it would have gone on - years, perhaps. I would have almost certainly had chemo in addition to surgery, and there's a pretty decent chance I wouldn't have survived it. But I did survive it; six weeks after the surgery, I'm even feeling fairly normal again. So now my goal is to get through life without wasting as much time as I used to just sitting around and staring at the wall. I had a real scare. I didn't want to be the person who lays dying in the hospital, thinking about all the things they wished they'd done.

Anyway, that's what's been going on.

As you were.